random stuff

1. My sister’s plane gets here tomorrow evening! Yay! She’ll be here in time for the March for Babies on Saturday, which is so cool, I’m really excited that she’ll be able to join us. The downside: the house is a mess, which I cannot deal with when we’re expecting company. So I need to get a-cleaning, and fast.

2. This house that we live in has a dual air-conditioning system, one for each floor. (It’s actually an energy saver; the A/C doesn’t have to work as hard when there’s two of them.) On Sunday, I went to get Catie up from her nap, and I heard a weird tap-tap-tap sound in her room. It was water leaking from her light fixture. Guess what’s above Catie’s bedroom? The attic. More specifically: the HVAC system in the attic. We had a guy come out here, who told us that the system is basically rotted and dying and we need a new one, and oh yeah we’ll probably need to replace the whole ceiling because the sheet rock has gotten wet, and we don’t want our asthmatic child to be breathing black mold in her bedroom. Fabulous.

Point being: yes, this sucks and all, but oh man, thank GOD we rent this place. I cannot imagine having to deal with that expense right now.

3. The eye test I was supposed to have that involved the plastic thingy on the surface of my eyeball? Well, it was supposed to happen last Thursday, but then I got sick, so I postponed it until today. Then they called me this morning and said that my eye doctor is sick, so now it’s been rescheduled for next Thursday. Which is fine by me, it’s not like I’m looking forward to this thing. (Incidentally, my eye doctor also has a baby. Want to bet that he gave her the exact same cold that Catie gave me? I wouldn’t doubt it.)

4. Random cute Catie things:
4a. Her newest song (to the tune of “Twinkle Twinkle”):
Ringo Ringo Ringo Starr
How I wonder what you are?

4b. Catie really loves to play in the car, specifically in the front seat. Witness:
Catie driving
Exhibit A.

The problem, of course, is that this isn’t exactly legal, what with those pesky child restraint laws and everything. (Damn government! Interfering with my right to endanger my child!) So, although she’s usually pretty good in the car, she does have occasional screamfests about the fact that she wants to be in the front seat with us. Yesterday, we went to the grocery store and stopped for gas on the way home. I let Catie get in the front with me while Dave pumped the gas, then we decided we’d let her hang out in the front seat while we went through the car wash.

In case you were wondering? That has got to be the best way to make a toddler’s day, EVER. She loved it. “Car have baff? Get all cwean?” I’m not sure if it was the car wash itself or the thrill of riding shotgun (in Dave’s lap), but either way, I’ll have to make a mental note to do that again sometime, because it was so much fun.

And it felt totally rebellious in a “breakin’ the law, breakin’ the law” kind of way, even though we weren’t moving inside the car wash, and as soon as it was done and we exited the car wash, I pulled over & Dave buckled her back into her seat. Still. It felt sort of naughty and fun. (Sad that this is my idea of excitement these days, no?)

4c. This is what bathtime looks like at our house lately.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i8f_PLMF0HU
We usually end up with more water on the floor than in the tub, but whatever. You’re only 2 years old once, might as well let her enjoy some of this silly stuff before she’s too cool for it.

that ol' work/life balance

My little freelancing thing is suddenly picking up some serious momentum. I have a project starting up soon that’s going to keep me very busy over the next several weeks, and as a bonus, it’s going to bring in a nice chunk of money. And it might possibly even involve having my name in an actual book, like something you could buy on Amazon and everything. Which is sort of mind-blowingly awesome and weird.

Also, I have a couple of writing jobs to finish up that pay almost nothing, and even though I’d like to blow them off because I now have this new job, I feel like I can’t because I promised to complete these assignments, and I don’t want to burn any bridges. (Wow, longest run-on sentence ever?) So I need to finish these few things up, in addition to the new gig.

So, if you don’t hear from me too much over the coming weeks, you’ll know why.

But hey look, cute pictures of my kid!

After bathtime, new pj's
Showing off her new pajamas after bathtime. And wearing my headband as a necklace. Incidentally, lately she only wants Dave at bathtime, not me. I think it’s because he’s more tolerant of her squirting him in the eye with her bath toys than I am.
See that little arm hooked around his neck? Yeah, she is all about Daddy these days.

small smile

IM IN UR COMPUTR, SENDIN UR TWEETZ
IM IN UR COMPUTR, SENDIN UR TWEETZ

laughing and drinking at the same time - never a good combo
She loves her new Sesame Street pajamas.

watching a video on YouTube
Catie approves of this blog entry.

March for Babies update

I just checked the status for my March for Babies team, and I see that we’ve raised a combined total of $590. I think that’s pretty awesome. I set sort of an arbitrary goal amount, I really didn’t think we’d get anywhere close to it. I’m very proud of the progress we’ve made so far. Anyway, since I can’t figure out how in the blankety-blank to get this little badge into my sidebar, here it is again.


(That only links to my personal page. Apparently I can’t get a widget for my team. I don’t know why.)

If you were thinking about donating, please click on that badge and do so. Even just a couple of dollars would be great.

Our walk is on May 2nd. I just found out that my sister will be in town that weekend (she has a business trip that will require her to be in the area on Monday, May 4th, so she’s going to come early and spend a couple of days with us), and she’s going to try to fly in on Friday night so she can join us for our March for Maddie. Which would be awesome, because in case you didn’t know, my sister is the coolest.

So, yeah. Almost $600 so far. Pretty darn good, I think.

Edited to Add: Hey, I got my badge in my sidebar! Yay! Big shout-out to Dawn at Kaiser Mommy for helping me figure that one out. (Btw, she’s also the one responsible for these really beautiful bracelets to raise money for the Spohr family. I ordered one for Catie and one for me last week, can’t wait to get them.)

overreaction

Catie’s had a cold since our camping trip last weekend. At first it was just an endlessly drippy nose, but yesterday her asthma started to flare up. I didn’t think too much of it right away, because it didn’t seem that bad. When she had an asthma crisis back in December, I knew something was wrong because she was lethargic and obviously miserable. She would only moan and cry when she woke up, then go back to sleep. But with this current cold, she’s generally been pretty cheerful and acting like her normal self. I mean, yes, she’s been wheezing a little bit off & on, but she’s also singing, laughing, and narrating little stories that her toys act out. So we were giving her albuterol & pulmicort in the nebulizer – the way we normally treat her asthma – but I wasn’t that worried.

This morning, Dave got up with Catie to let me sleep in a little longer. (Love it when he does that.) A while later, he brought her upstairs to bed, and she snuggled in next to me. I was spooning her with my hand on her chest, and I could feel how rapid her breathing was, and how fast her heart was pounding. I told Dave we needed to give her some albuterol, and he said he had just done it a few minutes ago. I promptly freaked out and called the pediatrician. They told us to come straight in, which we did.

I think the words “asthma attack” have some sort of magical power on pediatricians. They were waiting for us when we got there, and brought us straight back to a room. The doctor came in immediately. They tried to get a pulse ox on Catie’s finger, but she wasn’t having it (oh, the shrieking), and they couldn’t get an accurate reading from her big toe. We finally got her to calm down enough that the doctor could listen to her chest with the stethoscope.

Not our usual pediatrician: Um, her lungs are clear.
Me: But she’s been wheezing since yesterday!
NOOP: When was her last albuterol treatment?
Me: About 45 minutes ago.
NOOP: Well, it’s clearly working because she sounds fine now.
Me: But she’s breathing so fast! And her heart is pounding!
NOOP: Well, albuterol does accelerate the heart rate…
Me: Um… it does? [Feel REALLY stupid for not knowing that.]
NOOP: Her airways are definitely open, she’s not in respiratory distress at all. I think the worst of the cold has probably passed, so just keep doing what you’re doing with the nebulizer and you should be able to wean her off the albuterol by Friday.
Me: Oh. OK.
~Fin~

I’ll be honest, I think part of the reason why I reacted so strongly was because I was thinking about Maddie. When I was lying in bed with Catie and I felt how fast and hard she was breathing, it scared the wits out of me. Before two weeks ago, it never once entered my mind that a child could ever just stop breathing.

I know that Maddie is an exceptionally rare case, I know the odds of anything like that happening to Catie are very remote. And yes, of course it has always been frightening to hear my little girl struggling to breathe, and it always will be. I just don’t know if or when this particular type of intense fear-that-the-worst-could-happen will subside. Am I overreacting? Very likely. But how can I not, when we’ve seen proof that sometimes the worst does happen, for no damn reason?

Seriously, how do you not overreact?

Baby's (and Mommy's) first camping trip

Those of you who know me, know that I am not an outdoorsy type of girl. I freak out when I see a bug, I have horrible seasonal allergies, and I’m not a big fan of being out in the elements if it’s too hot or too cold or even remotely unpleasant. I’m a big wuss, basically.

In light of that, I’m not quite sure why I agreed to go camping this past weekend. I guess because it’s becoming Dave’s latest hobby, and I’d like to be included in it. Plus, springtime means the weather is nice and moderate. And Dave told me that the campsites have electricity, water, and a building with toilets and showers, so it’s not like I’d have to pee in the bushes or anything. Heck, some of the campsites now offer wi-fi. So it seemed like something that I could handle. Maybe.

Let the record show: I’ve never slept in a tent in my life. I mean, sure there was once at a slumber party that we set up a tent in the neighbor girl’s backyard, but I was back inside the house with my sleeping bag on the floor of the playroom before midnight. My family took “camping” trips when I was a kid where we’d go hiking in state parks, but we stayed in motels or cabins. And honestly, all I remember of those trips is blistering heat (summer in the South, not the best time to plan an outdoor vacation) and feeling like I was dying of thirst (since this was before people carried bottled water with them, so there was nothing to drink until we stopped for lunch or dinner).

Mostly, I remember the fighting. There was always lots of fighting. I hated those trips. But like so many other things, I thought that this might be an opportunity to do something for Catie that’s completely different than my own childhood. Turning my bad memories into happy ones, something like that.

So we set off for Asheboro, North Carolina, and set up camp at the Deep River Campground. It was very pretty.

view from our campsite

Check out our fancy-pants accomodations.

our accomodations

I know you’re jealous.

It made me nervous to be camping right by the lake, since Catie doesn’t always seem to understand that she can’t jump into any body of water like it’s her own personal bathtub. But we told her that it was ok for her to throw rocks and twigs into the lake, but she absolutely could not go in there, and she seemed to get it. Still, we had our eyes on her pretty much constantly.

Catie by the lake

And really? The camping was not so bad. Only two complaints:
1) The bathrooms were gross. Really gross. I sort of wish I’d taken pictures so I could prove my case, but I didn’t think of it until later. But I quickly decided that since we were only going to be there one night, I’d be ok with just skipping the whole shower thing until we got home, thank you very much.
2) Sleeping in a tent actually sucked worse than I thought it would. It dropped down into the 50’s that night, which is pretty darn cold when you’re basically outside. We got a sleeping bag for me before this trip, but the zipper wouldn’t come more than halfway up, so my legs were sweaty and my upper half was freezing. And poor Catie was miserable. She started crying from being so cold around 3 a.m., and it took almost 2 hours to get her settled back to sleep. She woke up in a pretty good mood, though.

SERIOUS case of bed-head

She also woke up with a horrendous drippy, snotty nose, which I’m hoping is just a reaction to sleeping outside during the peak of pollen season, and not the onset of a full-blown cold. Especially since her asthma tends to make colds about ten times worse than the average kid’s.

Since we were in Asheboro, we decided to stop by the North Carolina Zoo on Sunday, to wear Catie out in the hopes that she’d sleep the whole drive home. We’d never been to the NC Zoo before, it’s really beautiful. We only hit the Africa exhibit, since we knew that’s where the animals Catie likes would be (elephants, zebras, giraffes, monkeys, etc.), and I think we made the right call. She had a great time.

Catie & me with the zebra

Dave & Catie on the elephant statue

Catie playing in the display helicopter

Catie & me on the carousel

Oh, and the plan to exhaust her so she’d sleep on the way home? Worked like a charm. Easiest road trip with a toddler ever.

Here are the rest of the pics from our camping and zoo trip. Overall, it wasn’t horrible and I might go camping again. But I think I have to exchange this stupid defective sleeping bag that I got, and maybe wait until it’s a little warmer. Generally, though, I think I’d prefer to rent a cabin. Even a really rustic cabin would be ok – as long as there are walls to shield us from the wind. And an attached bathroom. That’d be nice.

fill my eyes with that double vision

I mentioned here a while ago that I was having problems with my eyesight, which I’d noticed when I was trying to read. It isn’t so much a problem when I’m on the computer, but books, the iPhone, and the Kindle all made my right eye hurt and go blurry. I knew I was way overdue for an eye checkup (my last one was sometime in 2003, I think), so I made appointment for today, since Catie is in daycare and I wouldn’t have to bring her with me.

Also, Dave’s glasses broke a while ago, so he needed some new ones. Ok then, appointments for two! Not quite a date night, but any outing without the kid counts, right?

As I was kind of expecting, the doctor told me I was farsighted right away. Then she started doing that, “which is better, number 1 or number 2?” thing with the different lenses. And while my left eye is basically fine, no matter what she did with the lenses on my right eye, I was pretty much blind. Huh. It was a little disconcerting. I kept waiting for the big, “hey, I can see!” epiphany, but it never happened.

She did some more tests, and concluded that I have a lazy eye. It’s not severe, she said people wouldn’t notice it when they’re making eye contact with me – unlike a guy I once went on a blind date with, who had a lazy eye so bad that he made me horribly self-conscious that there was something wrong with my ear. One eye made perfect eye contact, the other seemed to be focusing on the side of my head. It was freaky.

Also, my dad has glaucoma, and she’s a little worried that I might be showing early signs of developing it too. So I’m going back next week for some test that will involve a plastic thing on the surface of my eyeball and oh my god, I think I’m going to have to get my regular doctor to call in some Valium for me beforehand.

In the meantime, I now have glasses. Or at least, I’ll have them in 7 to 10 business days.

I have glasses

Certainly not the greatest picture of me, but they’re pretty cute, right? They’re red. I like them.

Dave has glasses too

Dave got glasses too. They look a lot like his old ones, I think it’s a good look for him.

P.S. Apologies if the title of this post put a Foreigner song in your head. It seemed fitting.

feeling purple

Today is baby Maddie’s funeral. For those of us who can’t be there in person to support the Spohr family, we’re showing our support by wearing purple today.

Catie & me in our purple for Maddie

Would you believe that out of the 10,937 items of purple clothing that Catie owns, the only thing I could get her to agree to wear this morning is a wife beater with a sparkly embroidered kitty-cat on the front?

Catie & me in our purple for Maddie
(Note that I am totally doing the “hide my giant butt behind someone else” move here.)

Catie & me in our purple for Maddie

A lot of bloggers are doing a purple balloon release in Maddie’s honor. (If you watch this video and don’t tear up even a tiny bit? I’m not sure I understand you.) I thought about doing it, but it’s a really gloomy, rainy day, and I couldn’t think of anything more depressing than taking pictures of a purple balloon floating up toward dark gray rain clouds. So no, not doing that.

Heather and Mike, I hope you feel the love around you today, and I pray that you can find peace and comfort. That’s really all I can say.